Monday, February 21, 2005

Will it ever stop?

I am in pain. I hate pain...it hurts too much! Can you hear that silent scream? That was me trying to cope but not succeeding. For the last 5 or 6 months I've been suffering through a 3 day nightmare of cramping that I did not know was possible. I am grateful it took this long before it started to happen to me, as some women experience this every month of their lives, but I can't take it any more! The drugs are not strong enough. I either need more or someone must kill me now!! I'd prefer the drugs but my doctor seems reluctant to take it to the next level...the really good kind. The ones that can lead to addiction. The ones that could take away the pain and make me happy again! Narcotics! I need the drugs so badly. I have no tolerance for the pain that I am feeling.

I'm going back to bed now. Please wake me when it's over.

Posted by Maple :: 11:36 AM :: 0 Comments:

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