Thursday, June 01, 2006

Spring Cleaning Time!

My once busy life has become dull again. I managed to spend all of last night working again and my only escape was to go out to get something to eat. Besides work, I have nothing going on that is motivating me to be energetic and alive right now. I can't be bothered to do anything around the house (it's such a mess!) and when I'm not working I don't seem to want to go out unless one of my friends suggests something first. It may have something to do with the fact that work is not very stimulating right now. Most of my days are spent reading blogs because there is very little to do, until 5pm when things have to get done right away so I end up working all night long. It does make for a negative attitude that is hard to shake.

So how do I make the transition from unmotivated slob back to fun, energetic party person? I start by getting outside during lunch. There are some street vendors outside my building this week that I've been meaning to check out and I also need to get a new book so today is the day! I also need to clean up my apartment and get rid of the clutter. The more clutter that surrounds me, the more cluttered my mind so it's time to take control again. The most important task that will put me in a better frame of mind...actually talking to Kev and telling him how I feel. Amazingly, we still haven't talked. We spoke briefly on Sunday night, but I was out with CG at the time and when I tried calling him back later he didn't answer his phone so I'm assuming he was asleep. And there has been no attempt by either of us to try contacting the other. I'm so glad I stopped caring about if and when he'd call. It's been much easier this way, whereas before my stomach would've been in knots this whole time worrying about why he wasn't calling. Now it's clear...we just don't care enough to bother. Oh well...c'est la vie!

Posted by Maple :: 11:03 AM :: 2 Comments:

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