Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Drinking & V-Day don't mix
Bowling ended up being a lot of fun last night. People were social and entertaining, there was lots of food and beverage tickets were kept under lock and key by the boss (at least until later in the evening). I bowled a couple of strikes, a few spares and a few more gutter balls but managed to break 100 my second game. There was laughter, cheering and a little good natured ribbing, but it was fun. It was fun until most people left and I was there with 23 year old DTM and since he was the client, I was using the expense account. Until last night, I had never really talked to DTM except for a Hi when walking past in the halls. He wasn't part of my direct team and people tend to stick with their groups around here so we've never had the opportunity to get to know each other. He's nice and cute too, but oh so young. Which made me feel really old. Which started making me depressed and that mixed with alcohol, mixed with V-Day meant I was in trouble. I couldn't stop talking about how old I was and how everyone else - including the bartenders Aaron & Tucker - were so young. I know I talked too much about it because they started making fun of me, yet I couldn't stop myself. It was embarrassing. I've been in denial about so much in my life but it became very apparent last night that I am a very bitter person right now which makes me very sad. I thought I was ready to meet men and date again, but I won't get very far in the state I'm currently in. What happened to that happy girl that couldn't stop smiling? Where did she go? Most importantly, how do I get her back?
Posted by Maple :: 11:14 AM :: 4 Comments: ---------------------------------------