Thursday, June 22, 2006
Choices
The choice to do something - or not do something - can be very powerful. Something as small as opening the blinds, which I did today for the first time in months, can have a profound impact that is truly unexpected. Other choices that seem enormous, such as ending things with Kev, seem to have very little impact at all. But what about those things that you decide not to do anything about…what impact does that have? I'm starting to realize that putting off decisions - making the choice not to do anything - has helped to make my life stagnant. I don't have much to look forward to right now because I'm not putting any effort into it. I'm bored at work but there is plenty I could be doing to get my life to where it needs to be. Recently, I made the decision to renew my lease for another year. Why? Because I wasn't ready to take the leap and focus on moving back home. I started to formulate a plan when I initially met Kev and it is very possible I could pull it off but I'm scared to take that first step of doing something different. Of venturing out into the unknown. My life feels very safe the way it is but I'm starting to get bored with safe. I need some excitement.
My trip to Ireland in September is another thing I've yet to make decisions about. The only thing I do know for sure is that Tosa is coming with me. She was kind enough to give me information on some of the places she's stayed and things to see but I haven't done anything on my end. I know absolutely nothing about the country at this point and I'm almost overwhelmed with the idea of figuring out plans for our trip. Part of me would love for Tosa to take control and plan everything but I know that won't happen because she doesn't want to do that…and I don't blame her. It's time for me to step up and decide on stuff and start moving forward or we may not end up going - and that would be BAD!!
There are plenty of other things that I just choose to ignore instead of making a decision on and it's time to change my ways. Time to look to the future and take the initial step to get things done. No more hiding behind indecision and being afraid of the unknown. As a wise fortune cookie once said…
The secret of getting ahead is getting started.
Posted by Maple :: 2:29 PM :: 2 Comments: ---------------------------------------