Thursday, July 28, 2005

I need a hug

Sadness is starting to come over me like a thick fog. I must be pms-ing. My client won't say a word to me today...actually no one at work has unless I asked them a direct question. I messed up last night which they are making out to be a much bigger deal than it needs to be so I've been thrown under the bus once again at this place. It's an easy fix and an honest mistake but they completely freaked out about the whole thing. So I'm hiding out in my cubicle with my headphones on so I can't hear them talking about me. I'm trying to show some interest in what I have to do today but it's just not working. All I want to do is go home, crawl back into my bed, pull the covers over my head and sleep. Nothing more, nothing less. Actually, that's not true. I want to have Fenway here to give me a hug and hold me as I fall asleep. That would make me feel much better. Instead I'll just have to put that wonderful image in my head and remember what it felt like. If I close my eyes tight enough I can almost feel his arms around me, holding me tight. These are the days when the distance will be the most difficult for me. Hopefully I won't be working all night so that I can at least talk to him in more comfortable surroundings later tonight. Lately we've only talked while I'm at my desk, walking around downtown or on the train home. Not the right surroundings as far as I'm concerned. I hate talking on the train. I've always bitched about the people who are constantly on their phones while everyone else is quietly reading or listening to their music and now I've become one of them. I don't like it but if that's my only chance of talking to Fenway, then everyone else will just have to suffer.

Posted by Maple :: 3:17 PM :: 3 Comments:

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